I am the daughter of a King! There are many times I don't act like it. I haven't dressed like it. I haven't walked like it. I am not only loved, but liked by my Father. This morning my son got up at 5:30 in the morning...he was cold and fussy. I changed him and then gave him his bottle. As I sat with him this morning, I was praying that he would understand the love the Father has for him. We adopted him at six days old. Just the other day someone asked me if we have bonded...(hint: If you meet someone who has adopted, please don't ask them this question.) Anyway, that comment has stuck in my head ever since. There are times that I have wondered...I think just because it has been brought up- I'm not sure it would have occurred to me otherwise. After his bottle I put him up on my shoulder so I could burp him, he laid his head on my shoulder and our faces were side by side. It was a sweet moment with just him and me. I thought about how my Father has adopted me...I thought about how much love I have for my son, how I wish I could have birthed him so he would be "all mine." I thought of how trusting he is with us his Mom and Dad. We are predictable, we change him when he is wet or soiled, we feed him, we put him down for naps, we play with him, we take care of all his needs so that he doesn't have to worry and can focus on growing and learning. I really coudn't imagine life without our little one now...
Lord, I receive! I believe! Show me your love for me today, I want to be transformed in Your presence, in your peace. I want to hear Your voice as deep calls unto deep. My heart cries out for You, come and meet with me. Yes, I need You, but even more, I want You and You alone! You ARE my hiding place. Fill me Holy Spirit, fill me with Your fullness of joy! Fill me with so much of Your love that it overflows and spills onto everyone I meet, especially my husband and son. God is love...if I have not love, then I have to wonder whether I have God at all because He is love! Sometimes we think we have God, but I believe frequently we have a false imitation, not the real representation of Him, but a shadow of our own creation, which guess what? That is idolatry! Lord I want to see You in Your fullness, not what I think You are, but who You really are! "Having a form of godliness, but denying it's power." Yikes! I believe that is where many of us are...are we living in our own performance and a religious spirit to make it look like we are christians? We have well meaning hearts, but without the power of Almighty God, we've got nothing! We needed His power in the beginning when we received Him, why do we think we don't need Him everyday thereafter? Why do we think we can live a supernatural life on our own? We need the supernatural to accomplish and perform miracles in our midst- so many hurting people, so much evil- are we really going to come against all that with a mere performance, copying the real mccoy? We need the fullness of the spirit to move in and through us to truly be Christ to a dying world! Lord, help us to get our priorities right- without more of You, waiting in Your presence, hearing Your voice, how do we expect to get through one day ourselves and face the onslaughts of the enemy,let alone reach those around us that need hope, that need life and life more abundantly? Lord, I want it all- ALL that You have for me. I want to be done with my self absorption, done with my worrying about what other christians are going to say- done with the woe is me, my life has been hard or is hard or whatever. We as americans do not have a clue what hard is! As we sit on our couches watching tv and eating our snacks in our warm, comfortable homes while so much of the world doesn't have food, doesn't have a home, sleeps on a mat on a sidewalk, is used by perverts so that can get a litte bread...what do we really know about hardship? We can delude ourselves so fast by our petty problems. Lord, give me Your view, Your heart...help me to think like You do! "I must decrease and He must increase!" Lord, I don't know how to get closer to You, I can't make myself change, please work in me, cause me to "will and do Your good pleasure!" I want all that You have for me!!!!!!!!!!
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