Daughter of a King

Yesterday was a hard day, but your mercies, Lord are new EVERY single morning.  I have a fresh clean slate.  I woke up thinking about my need to be grateful for every thing in my life.  I looked out the french doors while I was still laying down in bed and saw beautiful golden colored trees, the sun peering from the east as it rises.  It is a gorgeous fall day and I need to take some time to realize all of the good things that God is doing and has already done in my life, in my heart, in thoughts, and even in my attitudes.  I am wanting to change, so therefore, the Holy Spirit is changing me.  Sometimes it seems soooooo slow, but it is happening even as I live out moment of my life.  I am continously growing.  Constantly changing.  This morning I was also thinking about the FACT that I am a daughter of a King!  Now at this moment that does not seem all that real or relevant, but it is true nonetheless.  Whether I choose to believe this truth or not is really irrelevant to the facts.  It is relevant in the sense that I need to understand it so that I can live my life accordingly.  If I do not believe that I am a daughter of a King, I won't live like it.  If I do, it would change everything. How does a princess act?  How does she speak?  How does she present herself?  How does she dress?  How does she carry herself?  Everything would change!  How does she approach the King?

Also, no matter what others say or do to me or about me would not change the facts!  Whether they believed it or not would not it make it true or not true.  It is true no matter what.  So the question is- do I believe this truth or not?  And if I don't, then why don't I? 

Just like Esther went through a process of beautification in preparation to be chosen as a possible queen for King Xerxes, so, I need to go through a process of refining and beautification to prepare me for my role as the bride of Christ...the water of God's word!  Lord, I pray the water of your Spirit and the water of your Word wash over me, cleanse me, change my mind, my thoughts, my attitudes that I would truly be more like you for reals!  No more facade, but the genuine article, the real mccoy- that is what I want, that who I present to the world matches up with who I am at home and who I am on the inside!  This can only be done by you- I need to make myself vulnerable before, to trust you completely, implicitly!  You are trustworthy- you are NOT like us fallen adams and eves- you are not "practically perfert in every way", you ARE perfect and yet full of love, giving compassion to those you have made!  You know our frame and that we are so very weak...help us father, I need the love of a Father to penetrate his sin sick, emotional wreck of a soul, right here, right now.  Not a moment too soon...I love you and want to love you and others better, deeper, authentically- but apart from you, I truly can do NOTHING!