This Mother's Day, my third, I was finding my heart to be so full of gratitude. I get to have the chance to be a Mom! Life has so many ironies that it is hard to wrap my brain around. Only God knows why things happen the way they do. Why one mother was not ready to parent the child she bore and why another mother was unable to conceive and is now a mother out of another's loss and pain. Our pastor prayed for us mothers-- sometimes I almost feel like an imposter, like I am not for real because I did not conceive and bear this child and yet, my heart tells me otherwise as I fed him, bathed him, changed him, and continually train him, read and snuggle with him. I cannot imagine life without this little boy who has the biggest, widest, most genuine smiler around. This little boy who makes me laugh and has the best giggle that I have ever heard. This little boy that is so smart. I pray for him all the time, that He would know His God and follow Him all the days of His life, who knows the places he will go, as Dr. Suess so aptly penned.
How can it be that a heart can be so full of gratitude and yet so full of grief all at once? So full of gladness and sadness all at the same time-- Again, the ironies of life that abound. It is through joy that we are sustained and through pain that our character is built. God is good and He does all things well, I will trust in sorrow and blessing! For my God is faithful at every hour and at every turn!
